Month: October 2019

My soul pants for you, O God …

Psalm 42 AMP

 As the deer pants [longingly] for the water brooks,
So my [a]soul pants [longingly] for You, O God.
2 
My soul (my life, my inner self) thirsts for God, for the living God.
When will I come and see the face of God?
3 
My tears have been my food day and night,
While they say to me all day long, “Where is your God?”
4 
These things I [vividly] remember as I pour out my soul;
How I used to go along before the great crowd of people and lead them in procession to the house of God [like a choirmaster before his singers, timing the steps to the music and the chant of the song],
With the voice of joy and thanksgiving, a great crowd keeping a festival.

5 
Why are you in despair, O my soul?
And why have you become restless and disturbed within me?
Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall again praise Him
For the help of His presence.
6 
O my God, my soul is in despair within me [the burden more than I can bear];
Therefore I will [fervently] remember You from the land of the Jordan
And the peaks of [Mount] Hermon, from Mount Mizar.
7 
Deep calls to deep at the [thundering] sound of Your waterfalls;
All Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me.
8 
Yet the Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime,
And in the night His song will be with me,
A prayer to the God of my life.

9 
I will say to God my rock, “Why have You forgotten me?
Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?”
10 
As a crushing of my bones [with a sword], my adversaries taunt me,
While they say continually to me, “Where is your God?”
11 
Why are you in despair, O my soul?
Why have you become restless and disquieted within me?
Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him,
The [b]help of my countenance and my God.

What am I doing …

I am having trouble hearing from God. Some days it just flows and I have so many wonderful God Incidence. I have been stuck in a deep low of frustration and anger. Why do others seem to have a great life? Do they really have calm and peace? As I am learning it is not my will be done but its God will.  If God is calling me to just do dishes and laundry then that is what I need to do and stop trying to control the situation.

Jeremiah 29:11 (AMP)

11 For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.